:'o( Unfortunately we didn't hear good news today. Molly informed us that Kelly decided to go with the other couple as adoptive parents for her son. The other couple currently has 2 boys, so that was the main reason she went with them. I guess they already ride dirt bikes and stuff and she was interested in that too. We said we would like to do those things in the future, but I guess that wasn't good enough. Oh well, everything happens for a reason, but it doesn't make things any easier. It is hard not to get your hopes up or get excited. There is still a little girl that will be due around Aug 20th and another baby due in Oct and one in Jan. We definitely appreciate the prayers and words of encouragement! I'll keep you updated if we hear anything...

We still have not heard any news about whether or not we were chosen to be the adoptive parents for Kelly's baby. Derek has been a little impatient, as he was asking me on Mon & Tues if he could call Molly to ask if she knew anything (lol). Finally on Wed, I decided it would be ok to atleast ask her if Kelly had met with the other adoptive family. She informed us that she was going to meet them today. So, depending on how well that does... we may be able to find something out tomorrow or this weekend (finger and toes crossed). I have been telling everyone that lately :o) Everyone has informed me that they definitely have their fingers and toes crossed and are praying for us. I feel like I have been on an emotional roller coaster. It has been so crazy. I go through stages where I am really excited and confident that we were chosen, then other times I get really down and am afraid we weren't chosen. I know everything happens for a reason and God has a plan for us. I know if Kelly chooses the other couple that there is a reason and someone better will come along for us. Everything will work out :o) But in the mean time, keep your fingers and toes crossed!

Well, we met with a birth mom named Kelly yesterday! She was really awesome and easy to talk to. I can see us really getting along if me and Derek are chosen. She is 19 and goes to OSU for criminology. She has a great personality. She is very cute with brown hair and brown eyes. She has a dimple on one side of her face (which I thought would be adorable if her baby has one too). I think I mentioned already that she is having a baby boy on August 11th. She doesn't drink or do drugs and is taking very good care of herself, which is awesome. It was clear when meeting her that she acts younger and is clearly not ready to be a mom. It definitely has to be hard for her, because as she is here in Columbus, her family lives near Cleveland. They have no idea that she is pregnant and she does not plan on telling them. She is going through this alone w/ the help and support of Molly. The meeting with her went really well and I felt really good about it, but she has to make the decision between us and one other couple. I dunno how long it will take for her to make a decision. She did say that she wanted the couple she picks to go to dr.s appointments with her and she has one on Thursday. So I'm hoping we will find out soon and get to go on Thursday.

It is hard not to get excited or get my hopes up, and Derek feels the same way. Everytime I hear my phone ring or it vibrates in my pocket I get excited that it may be Molly calling us. Last night me and Derek both had trouble sleeping. It is crazy how one phone call could change our whole lives :o) Hopefully we will get a call either way soon. I know if Kelly doesn't pick us there is a reason and God has a plan. Everything will work out... Keep your fingers and toes crossed!

OMG!! We got a call from Molly this afternoon. She met with a birth mom yesterday and it has been narrowed down between us and one other couple. The birth mom is due on August 11th with a little boy. It is so exciting and nerve racking at the same time. August 11th is only 34 days away. WOW! Me and Derek are very excited but at the same time we don't know whether or not we have been chosen yet. We are going to meet with the birth mom on Sunday for lunch. Fingers and toes crossed! :o)

Well as August gets closer, it is getting more and more difficult to be patient and wait to find out if we have been matched. Derek called Molly today and got an update. One is due on August 11th and the other on August 20th. 35 days and 44 days. Craziness! It is even more crazy to think that they could go into labor early and we could possibly be parents even sooner! Molly is meeting one of the birth moms today (fingers crossed). They will discuss whether or not they are ready to be matched and may look at profiles of adoptive parents. I guess one of the birth moms is having a girl and the other is having a boy. It doesn't matter to us either way so that doesn't make a difference. Derek is starting to get more and more frustrated with the situation. We feel like we have been somewhat mislead. When going through the initial process we thought we would get frequent updates and have the opportunity to really bond with the birth mom. If we are matched a month before the baby is born, it will be difficult to develop a strong bond. I guess we will just make the best out of the situation and keep our head held high :o)