Welp, unfortunately we don't have a lot of news to report. The agency advised that Nikita hasn't backed out of the adoption or changed her mind, but it appears she has kinda pushed the agency away some. Therefore, this has resulted in little updates or contact between the agency and Nikita. According to the agency, this can be part of the grieving process and isn't necessarily uncommon. Still frustrating for us, but we do understand that it can be difficult. Since things haven't felt right the last two weeks or so, we don't feel as bothered by the situation as we would have if this came from no where. It's never going to be easy but we would rather her change her mind now than to change her mind after the baby is born. At this point, we haven't pushed the agency for information since we realize that once information is given we will be notified. We definitely don't want to push Nikita any farther away either.

We realize everything happens for a reason and God has a plan. Many people don't understand what it's like or how emotionally challenging and draining the process can be. We really feel like we are on a roller coaster. However, it is interesting to see different peoples reactions when they find out that we're adopting. Some are excited to hear about the process and to get updates. Others ask "why?" or suggest different options. To be honest, it is different for everyone. Everyone has their own opinions or views and that doesn't make one way right or wrong. Some people don't have kids at all where as others try for years and spend thousands on infertility treatments for a miracle baby. Everyone is different, and unless you've been in their shoes... its hard to say how you would react or what decisions you would make. Regardless of anyone's situation, it's important to support them and be by their side no matter what. We are lucky that we have support from our friends and family. Dunno what we'd be like if we were doing this alone...